.when you miss somebody...

.you probably know that feeling, when you desperately want to be with somebody and she is not around, she is so far away... The feeling when the words told over the phone or the internet are just not enough. The only thing that matters is to be close to the person, to laugh together, walk together and to breath the same air.
The time is getting so slow, lazily passing by, torturing your heart with seconds that take ages. Your mind is telling you the wait will be over, just be patient. But heart never listens to such reasoning, heart is just sad and lonely. Sad and lonely, frantically awaiting the end of the wait. Dreaming about the happiness...

.still waiting...

.almost three weeks have gone since I finished my thesis, yet I still haven't receive supervisor's opinion. All that I got was an email telling me that he will surely look at it in no time... Great. An identical thing can be said about the job I've applied for. After two weeks they answered that they will let me know in less than two weeks... Isn't it reassuring?
So I'm quite bored now, watching movies, reading, playing computer games, doing some sports (I've started with running, as a complement sport to biking, it's not bad at all :) ). I was home for a week, but it didn't help much. I'm not used to doing nothing, last 7 month I had many duties and things that needed attendance, now it's absolutely nada to do. It's boring. And I'm still nervous as of how will this waiting end like.

Maybe tomorrow some new info will come?

.sad times

.sun is gone. Its place has been taken by full surprise by rain and wind. Everything looks sad, hopeless... All happiness disappears, giving away its position to the damp bleakness of surrounding world.
Streets are empty, everybody is in a hurry, taciturn, longing to be home soon. Longing to see familiar face, hear soothing voice. Yet seconds are changing into minutes, minutes into hours. Time is slowing its pace. Why is it so only when you wish the exact opposite? The only thing left is to hope it'll be over soon...

Let's hope!

.you gotta be kidding me...

.what was that comedy today? I don't know how it looked like to other spectators, but for me it was really, really sad picture of Slovak ice hockey team... It looks like our fate for this year's world championship in Moscow is quite clear, definitely no play-off. At least not with play like this. Friendly match with Czech Republic (we lost 2:5) uncovered our desperate hockey impotency, when no NHL players are around. However, this year only a very small number of the best will be available. This is a great chance for players from european leagues, but guys, not like this! Still two weeks to go, so maybe we'll see some improvement, hopefully...

.boredom in Cambridge

.this day was special. I was for the first time in Narodni divadlo (national theatre) in Prague. Yes, that's true, after 6 years of study in this magnificent city I still haven't visited one of the most famous buildings.

The play was supposed to be interesting... It is named Rock'n'Roll and is talking about Prague's history during normalisation period (1968-1990). It was divided into many small fragments situated in turns in Prague and Cambridge. Yet it was not funny enough to be a comedy, nor thrilling enough to be a drama... And it was looooong (>3h). Probably the main problem was that author is British and that means, that he hasn't lived through any of these events (not that I had, to be honest, I was too young when "velvet revolution" took part to be a part of it). And in this case not even very decent performance by actors can uplift such piece into a quality production...
I think we should talk about this dark period of our history, but maybe satire and shallow dialogues about communism is not the best we can do. This way the people younger than me didn't understand at all what was going on on the stage, people much older probably thought it to be too provoking and attacking. I was quite disappointed by the chance that was not made use of...

Footnote: the music was good ;), all the rock giants from these times (Velvet Underground, Rolling Stones, Pink Floyd, etc.)...

.anniversary edition

.my dear readers! Today I'm proud to present my anniversary post (nr.50) ;)...
As you see, it took me quite a long time to produce such a high number of different interesting posts ;), almost 4 months. Hopefully not all of them were a rubbish. Probably it won't be as hot with new posts in the following weeks. My Erasmus stay is over ;( and so also the inspiration will be a bit harder to find...
I'll see what the life will bring in next few months. I hope, that at least a graduation (finally) and maybe also something else... Who knows. See you next time and have a nice time while reading next 50 of my posts ;)!

.one chapter ends...

.so this is it. The time has come, we've done our exams and the stay in Germany, our Erasmus, is almost over. Only few days left, then we'll restart our routine lives in Prague. Hopefully with the successful final exams and master degree in computer science somewhere during this summer...

As with everything in life, I start to realize, that I'd miss this place. There were days I liked this city, university and people here, there were days of opposite feelings. Yet only now, at the end, I know that the positives were stronger. As always, you see that you like/love something only when you're about to lose it. As always, now you see quite brightly, that many things could have been done other way, some words could have been spoken, some deeds carried out. Yet they were not...

So here they come, last 4 days of our adventurous stay in the west European country. Will they bring something new, refreshing or are they designated to be dull and boring? This time, I'm going to let the fortune to decide ;).

.spring (already)?

.the sunny weather has arrived... Of course exactly at the moment when I need to study a lot (two big exams next week). What is positive, I've managed to succeed in four language exams (and that means a lot of ECTS points ;) ). I guess I'll get past these next 6 days somehow and then the freedom awaits ;)... And my diploma thesis, as well :(.

Nothing too exciting is going on here, I've only been to a Czechoslovak party (not very successful try to get all people from these countries together) and a really nice Russian-conversation-lecture-ending party (I've never ever before been to a party because some lecture was at the end...).
So, as I've said at the beginning, only that weather situation is worth to mention ;). Blue sky, quite hot on the sun and green everywhere... Is it spring already?

.party is over

.yeah, last 10 days were great. So much different from what we do here normally. Lots of traveling, lots of talk, plenty of fun and of course some wine ;). Party is over and all what is left are another 21 days in this city, let's hope a good ones...

Sasa left today in the evening (I drove her to the Mannheim, where she boarded her bus) and so the last visitor has gone. What awaits us now is not so enjoyable but it's also a part of university life - exams. Because we're here on Erasmus, the important ones like languages prevail ;)... So starting tomorrow, I have six exams to undertake (German, English, Russian, Spanish and after all this Computer graphics + Image processing).

Hopefully, all will go well and I will have time to write some posts from time to time :). See you!

.pf2007

Happy new year, everybody!!!

Let the year 2007 be a better one than the one we're leaving behind. May it be full of joy and peace for everyone, everywhere...

.christmas

.the time has come. The time for the most favourite of the holidays in practically whole world. The time for Christmas...
These days should be devoted to the peace, family gatherings and happiness. Yet last years have brought a little bit different view on this holiday. Commerce is everywhere, super sales for super gifts, etc. I do not really understand this because the gift is not the real purpose of meeting somebody. Gift can emphasize your love, care but not the quantity or price is what matters the most! It's a shame many people of today cannot see that...
So let us, at least for today, share a bit of love, attention and joy! With all the people who deserve it as a symbol of our thanks for their all year round care.

I wish you all the merriest Christmas filled with warmth of people's hearts!

.sadness

Dry tears

Rolling down the face
Eyes not glowing
The flame has died
Lips one tight line
The time is wrong for smile
Heart beating slower
As if to cry…

.homesick

.maybe it's because of the weather, maybe because of the star constellation... Or maybe I've been on one place for too long. Anyway I'm feeling a bit homesick right now. Nothing pleases me anymore, nothing brings a smile to my face. I need a change, i need to go home! It's not very far away, we're going to Prague (and then home) next Thursday. I cannot wait to see people, I've not seen for almost three months now. I cannot wait to see my hometown, my family.

I'm counting the days left...

.being 24

.the time is flying by as we live our everyday lives... Isn't it strange that we are the worst in witnessing the changes in our personality, tastes, appearance, etc.? Because we are with us each moment of our lives. It's quite the opposite with the people we see only from time to time. During every meeting you can hear things like: "oh, you've changed so much", "you look much older, much more serious". Yeah, we know many secrets and details about ourselves, yet we're not able to see the coarse changes in our thinking, gestures, mind...
This day (the birthday) should be special for everybody, or not? I don't know, I'm really 24 now but has something changed for me? I doubt it, still the same problems, same joys, sadness mixed with delight. Human soul is complicated and it evolves without noticing the "important dates" in the calendar...
Maybe it's better this way. Let us leave the soul problems for now and celebrate a bit, folks, cheers!!! :)

.she's 17!

.yeah, it's true. 17 years ago happened something very important. Thing, act of revolt that meant beginning of the end of one era, era of socialism in Slovakia (at those days still Czechoslovakia)... I'm talking about the so called "Velvet revolution", revolution that opened the doors for democracy (and borders to western Europe and other parts of the world).

We were too young to be a part of this process, still having simple childish problems. Too young to be aware of the importance of things going on around us. Thank God, our parents grasped at this chance of redefining the "freedom". Hundreds of thousands of people in the streets, ringing with keys, firm in intention to change the system... They helped the country (as seen on current economic growth, membership in major organisations etc.), helping also themselves and us at the same time (new possibilities of travel, study abroad etc.).

This day is a national holiday in Slovakia, so celebrate with us! Because democracy is almost mature now...

More info on wikipedia.

.melancholy

.it looks like we have waved our "Good bye!" to the warm and sunny times. Starting from today temperature dropped by some 10 degrees, which means it's freezing during the nights... These news are accompanied by strong winds and rains :'(. I don't know what does it mean to you, but for me it always brings melancholy. Only for a few days (body and mind need to settle to these new conditions probably) but always...
Maybe it's symbolic that it appeared exactly on the 1st of November. The day which means nostalgia for many (at least christian) cultures. The day when we're burning candles and remembering people who are not anymore among living, among us (hopefully not only on this day but today it's more visible...). So let us pay a little respect and dedicate a few thoughts to those who cared about us...

...Thank you